What do you do when you haven’t forgiven a person? Do you let your mind ponder to that exact moment in which the argument ended… Or do begin to think of all the things that were left unsaid. Forgiven is defined by the following two definitions:
- Stop feeling angry or resentful toward (someone) for an offense, flaw, or mistake.
- Stop feeling angry or resentful toward someone for (an offense, flaw, or mistake).
Well dictionary, you are right on the money on my emotions. But, what you forget to mention is the internal battle one has when trying to come to term about forgiving someone. The quote “Forgive and Forget” has been used loosely in modern society. Everything we do now has some sort of motive behind it, and with that motive comes determination to get what we want. Do we truly as human beings “Forgive and Forget” or do we merely lock up our emotions so that they are non existent. We all have that little treasure chest inside our minds were we hide our deepest desires, secrets, and opinions. But, must we really sacrifice what we really feel in order to hide everything else?
It is always easier to forgive an individual then deal with all the emotions and battle one has. Ha, I wish I could just take all my emotions and lock them in a box that is full of locked up emotions and secrets. No, such box exist for me anymore because I don’t forgive… I leave everything unforgiven. Maybe then I will truly understand the meaning of “Forgive and Forget.”
Yeah, that is what the summer is going to feel like!
Plan for the worse
You learn to plan your life ahead. You learn that once the plan is made there is no going back. But, what you realize is that you have made less decisions biased on your happiness and instead biased on your “plan.” But, what happens when the plan fails, and you believe that your whole world has come plummeting down.
That’s when life kicks in and you learn to survive on what you know. Determination and passion no longer exist. It’s about survival of the fittest and those whom win are the ones whom succeeded in life, according to society’s twisted view of “success.” Who say’s that I must have an extended amount of monetary value in order to be happy? Why can’t my plan be purely based on the idea that I want to be rich in life? Preposterous, I know… but for once I am thinking of myself. This black whole becomes worrisome and tiresome after a while. I must go against the status qua, but I have as well lost the passion and determination.
Im really glad the amount of residents that drop out/have to leave school from my floor doesn’t reflect on my RA abilities.
Because gosh darn it. I’ve had 4 have to leave for one reason or another already this semester.
I love you little ones. Please go far in life.
I seriously had a TA that did that in a 10 page lab report. Then he would count off points because at the right side words were cut off and it wasn’t perfectly one inch. -_- lets just say he no longer is a TA